Best question I have received in ages…
that word was wasted. took me 31 years to tell it to someone.
should have never said anything.
I need alcohol, lots of it…
Today I told one of the most beautiful ladies I have ever seen that she is beautiful. It was the first time I tell that to anyone.
not pretty, cute, gorgeous, hot, sexy. Beautiful , this word for me tops them all. I never had the balls to say it to anyone before.
A big milestone in my life. who ever knows me, knows how much I don’t do this. don’t give compliments, etc. and it’s really hard for me being an introvert.
it just feels ahhhh 
Friend: Wissam if Lebanon were a perfume, how would it smell like?
me: a pile of shit with a flower in the middle of it you might get a hint of the flower smell or know it’s there but masked by tons of shit and you hope that someday people will stop putting more shit instead let the flowers use the shit as fertilizer and let it grow
Friend: sprinkled with coriander 
me: that looks like kafta now
Friend: You disgusting little asshole you ruined my creative project design hahah
me: lol
someone told me I am insensitive to some people. I don’t even notice it. if I ever been insensitive to you, please tell me.
I am a complete retard in regard of this. I am apologise in advance.
I feel weird.
I lived through wars, civil wars, invasions, countless moves, several schools, universities, countries. I changed so many jobs, I am the kind of the guy that doesn’t take shit from no one, I even yelled at my bosses and quit before.All this, and I still have trouble telling someone that she is beautiful.
Well not so funny…
One of the things about being an INTJ is being able to detect very small pattern changes in anything. We can detect if someone is upset just by the type of words they use, or typos, or anything like similar without the other person telling us.
The problem with INTJ is that we are kinda insensitive and sometimes we blurt out things that are offending and hurtful to others without even knowing that we do that.
So every time I see someone upset while they are talking to me, I keep wondering in my mind if I did something wrong or I offended them in any way. It ‘s worse when the person is a woman, because all I get is the “I am fine”, which it makes it harder.
I need a crash course in human interaction…
need a life change.
It’s been almost 4 years that I didn’t have any creep into my mind… today I had one.
it made me cry… last time I cried this much was 21 November 2009 in the taxi out of Edinburgh.
I am not happy.